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Hi, my name is Hime and I'm a waste of space. _(:3 」∠)_

(a somewhat awkward) otome gamer who can't handle all the FEELS

I mainly post/reblog things related to Shingeki no Kyojin, Kuroko no Basket, drama CDs or otome games. The blog is currently running on queue.

(formerly known as Koorihime) (I rarely follow back, even if we are friends, please don't take it personally ;;)

brocon-con:

Survey Regarding Otome Games and Characters

Dear Followers,

Would like to seek the help of fellow otome gamers here in a survey for my friend’s research project in otome games! She’s holding a raffle/lucky draw as well for those who participate in the survey so please do help out if you can!

If you have a Japanese friend, you can also share a Japanese version of this survey here: http://www.instant.ly/s/2KSJM

Message from my friend, Xeiran:

Hello everyone, I am currently conducting otome game research in Japan at Kanazawa University.  The focus of my research is on the difference between how foreigners and Japanese otome gamers perceive otome games and their darker aspects such as yanderes and twisted characters (and yes, the faculty actually okayed it!) . In order to compare between the two demographics, I’m conducting surveys in English and Japanese as well as interviewing otome gamers and otome game companies.

The survey itself is 35 questions, but to thank people for taking part in it I will be holding a raffle on July 6th 2014 with about 200 dollars (20000 yen) in otome games and goods as the prize. The current plan is for there to be between 3-5 winners depending on how many people take part.

I would greatly appreciate it if you could share this survey with your friends and anywhere you can!

*Special offer for the followers of brocon-con: Stand a chance to win one of these babies when you take part in the survey!

BROTHERS CONFLICT デカキーホルダー 椿 アニマルパーカーver

BROTHERS CONFLICT デカキーホルダー 梓 アニマルパーカーver

Please do read the following carefully:

- As this is a survey for a research project, we are intending to gather data from people who have played at least one otome game.

- My friend will be holding a draw to give out otome games/merchandise to the lucky few who are taking the survey, but the followers of this blog will get to enter a special draw!

- You can stand a chance to win one of the above two keychains featuring the twins (aren’t they adorable!).

- To be eligible for this, please do indicate that you’re a follower of brocon-con in the comment box in the survey where you’re asked to enter an alias and email for the lucky draw. Please do remember to enter those three things (alias, email, indication that you’re a follower of brocon-con)! You can also specify which brother you’d prefer to get (no guarantee however!).

- There are other otome games/merchandise in the raffle, but if you indicate yourself as a follower of brocon-con, we will just include you in the draw for the keychains. If you are interested in the other otome game stuff that my friend is giving out, please do not indicate yourself as a follower of this blog.

- Two lucky winners will be picked out at random on 6 July 2014! Winners will be contacted via email.

- We ship everywhere! Unless you’re not living on Earth. We’ll need some more time before we are able to ship to an address out of Earth.

- I know it’s not much, but I still hope you can take a few minutes of your time to take the survey and help my friend!

From your fellow brocon,

brocon-con

Darling, I hate to tell you that I woke up wanting to die.
And an hour later nothing has changed. There’s a heaviness inside of me that won’t leave, and it’s dragging me back to the dark places I’ve seen before.
Sometimes my chest feels so tight I think there must be air, building up, soon there will be too much and I’ll pop, and everyone will talk about the tragic accident I became.
I woke up this morning with knots in my stomach and a heavy head, along with the feeling that it doesn’t matter that I woke at all.
I wish to go back to sleep, only this time, to stay that way.

(via bluebirdsonawire)

When you are hurting, there will always be people who find a way to make it about themselves. If you break your wrist, they’ll complain about a sprained ankle. If you are sad, they’re sadder. If you’re asking for help, they’ll demand more attention.

Here is a fact: I was in a hospital and sobbing into my palms when a woman approached me and asked why I was making so much noise and I managed to stutter that my best friend shot himself in the head and now he was 100% certified dead and she made this little grunt and had the nerve to tell me, “Well now you made me sad.”

When you get angry, there are going to be people who ask you to shut up and sit down, and they’re not going to do it nicely. Theirs are the faces that turn bright red before you have a chance to finish your sentence. They won’t ask you to explain yourself. They’ll be mad that you’re mad and that will be their whole reason alone.

Here is a fact: I was in an alleyway a few weeks ago, stroking my friend’s back as she vomited fourteen tequila shots. “I hate men,” she wheezed as her sides heaved, “I hate all of them.”

I braided her hair so it wouldn’t get caught in the mess. I didn’t correct her and reply that she does in fact love her father and her little brother too, that there are strangers she has yet to meet that will be better for her than any of her shitty ex-boyfriends, that half of our group of friends identifies as male - I could hear each of her bruises in those words and I didn’t ask her to soften the blow when she was trying to buff them out of her skin. She doesn’t hate all men. She never did.

She had the misfortune to be overheard by a drunk guy in an ill-fitting suit, a boy trying to look like a man and leering down my dress as he stormed towards us. “Fuck you, lady,” he said, “Fuck you. Not all men are evil, you know.”

“Thanks,” I told him dryly, pulling on her hand, trying to get her inside again, “See you.”

He followed us. Wouldn’t stop shouting. How dare she get mad. How dare she was hurting. “It’s hard for me too!” he yowled after us. “With fuckers like you, how’s a guy supposed to live?”

Here’s a fact: my father is Cuban and my genes repeat his. Once one of my teachers looked at my heritage and said, “Your skin doesn’t look dirty enough to be a Mexican.”

When my cheeks grew pink and my tongue dried up, someone else in the classroom stood up. “You can’t say that,” he said, “That’s fucking racist. We could report you for that.”

Our teacher turned vicious. “You wanna fail this class? Go ahead. Report me. I was joking. It’s my word against yours. I hate kids like you. You think you’ve got all the power - you don’t. I do.”

Later that kid and I became close friends and we skipped class to do anything else and the two of us were lying on our backs staring up at the sky and as we talked about that moment, he sighed, “I hate white people.” His girlfriend is white and so is his mom. I reached out until my fingers were resting in the warmth of his palm.

He spoke up each time our teacher said something shitty. He failed the class. I stayed silent. I got the A but I wish that I didn’t.

Here is a fact: I think gender is a social construct and people that want to tell others what defines it just haven’t done their homework. I personally happen to have the luck of the draw and am the same gender as my sex, which basically just means society leaves me alone about this one particular thing.

Until I met Alex, who said he hated cis people. My throat closed up. I’m not good at confrontation. I avoided him because I didn’t want to bother him.

One day I was going on a walk and I found him behind our school, bleeding out of the side of his mouth. The only thing I really know is how to patch people up. He winced when the antibacterial cream went across his new wounds. “I hate cis people,” he said weakly.

I looked at him and pushed his hair back from his head. “I understand why you do.”

Here is a fact: anger is a secondary emotion. Anger is how people stop themselves from hurting. Anger is how people stop themselves by empathizing.

It is easy for the drunken man to be mad at my friend. If he says “Hey, fuck you, lady,” he doesn’t have to worry about what’s so wrong about men.

It’s easy for my teacher to fail the kids who speak up. If we’re just smart-ass students, it’s not his fault we fuck up.

It’s easy for me to hate Alex for labeling me as dangerous when I’ve never hurt someone a day in my life. But I’m safe in my skin and his life is at risk just by going to the bathroom. I understand why he says things like that. I finally do.

There’s a difference between the spread of hatred and the frustration of people who are hurting. The thing is, when you are broken, there will always be someone who says “I’m worse, stop talking.” There will always be people who are mad you’re trying to steal the attention. There will always be people who get mad at the same time as you do - they hate being challenged. It changes the rules.

I say I hate all Mondays but my sister was born on one and she’s the greatest joy I have ever known. I say I hate brown but it’s really just the word and how it turns your mouth down - the colour is my hair and my eyes and my favorite sweater. I say I hate pineapple but I still try it again every Easter, just to see if it stings less this year. It’s okay to be sad when you hear someone generalize a group you’re in. But instead of assuming they’re evil and filled with hatred, maybe ask them why they think that way - who knows, you might just end up with a new and kind friend.

By telling the oppressed that their anger is unjustified, you allow the oppression to continue. I know it’s hard to stay calm. I know it’s scary. But you’re coming from the safe place and they aren’t. Just please … Try to be more understanding. /// r.i.d (via inkskinned)

EVERYBODY READ THIS. RIGHT NOW.

(via miriamforster)

Don’t forget the fear. Anger is easier than fear.

(via delilahsdawson)

This is fucking amazing.

(via etherealzephyr)

— Dear Otome Fandom:

fireinanhourglass:

So recently there’s been a lot of hate directed at the heroine from the upcoming game, Gakuen K.  For a rebuttal of that stupidity, I recommend reading this excellent post by danceanddestroy.

The complaints I see lobbed at this character are complaints I see thrown at any number of MCs; complaints that are not based on an individual personality within the context of its circumstances, but instead based on cultural differences, subjective taste, and on the basic tenants of characterization (like a heroine daring to have flaws!).

For everything else, all I want to say is this:

Women shouldn’t have to be written to meet your standard of acceptable for you to respect them.  Strength comes in more than one form and I am sick of this fandom’s narrow definition of what a “strong woman” is, and even more so knowing it isn’t willing to apply the same standard to the male characters/love interests.

I am tired of reading posts bashing a heroine for not being a STRONG INDEPENDENT WOMAN© who can kick boxes, carry a gun and be an unbelievable sass master.  I’m not begrudging people’s preferences or enjoyment of a certain character type; I’m annoyed by the fact that one type is seen as inherently superior to another.  We allow love interests to have diverse and varying personalities but the heroines can only ever be one thing. 

Strength can be defined mentally, emotional, and physically, and all three are equally important. 

There are enough constraints on female characters as it is; stop creating more arbitrary hoops for them to jump through.

narwhal-noir:

I took my girlfriend to an improv show the other night and during intermission we were passionately arguing over whether half a 5 Hour Energy shot would give you 2.5 hours of energy or 5 hours of half-assed energy so we turned around to ask the opinions of the three people behind us and one of them said “Are all your arguments like this because we heard you in the lobby earlier fighting over the right way to pronounce ‘egg’?”

saltyrose:

hugs without kisses,
both endless and finite.